Look at me LIVING!!!

As everyone knows it is Valentine's Day and I am flying solo. First time in a long while might I add, but none the less single. I am not bitter, I am not mad, I don't wish for delivered flowers at my desk, or even a dinner date. For I have had a great Valentine's Day thus far. Lunch with my amazing sister and a night full of ME stuff.  Like most these days before bed last night I skimmed through Facebook, Pintrest, and Twitter. A quote caught my eye that I have not been able to get out of my mind today. "Hey, remember that person you thought you couldn't live without? Well, look at you, living and shit." Simple yet so deep. Those that have read my last blog will completely understand why this quote has stuck. For months and months I didn't think I was going to make it out alive, I didn't think I was ever going to smile again, I didn't think I was ever going to be able to look at another couple and be happy for them. BUT here I am. Smiling daily, making plans, reaching goals, and most importantly being happy with myself, my whole self again. As this holiday rolls around once a year many dread it and many ruin it for those that believe in it. However, this year is different for me. I am able to look at this holiday through a different lens. The lens of an older, wiser, and more patient woman. The realization that I am damn happy for those couples out there that can't get enough hugs, kisses, and time with that special person they share their life with. The ability to walk into every store and see their Valentine's isles and hope that each guy and gal are picking that perfect card that explains how they feel inside. Because for once I finally realize that I am where I am meant to be in life. Where months ago I didn't have the slightest clue as to why my life was going to HELL, it was so I could build it back to be the exact way I want it to be today. Filled with friends that have never left my side even after spending 3 years in another state, family that has stood to be proven as my backbone when I have lost mine, and a determined soul that God keeps pushing towards his forever shinning light. Because here I am living and shit without that person that I made my everything. Now this time I have made myself my everything and things are falling perfectly into place. Because there is nothing better for a woman to have than her shit together.

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!